I'm running on fumes this morning, practicing my scripts for Proverbs 31 Ministries Radio recording that starts in an hour and getting the kids settled before I go.

I woke up at 3am after a horrible nightmare that someone abducted Aster and we could not find her. I couldn't even breathe to get the words out to tell people where to look for her. It was horrible! When I woke up my heart was racing and I couldn't get back to sleep. I went upstairs to check on her two times because I just needed to see and touch her. Praying over her comforted my heart.

This morning I am asking Jesus to replace my fumes with His Holy fuel.

I don't know about you, but I can't do anything in my own strength on a few hours of sleep. My weary heart is searching for strength. I need the kind that is made perfect in my weakness. And I am so thankful that, in Christ, I find it. When I am weak He say's He will be strong.

I keep thinking of Paul's words, "To this end I labor, struggling with all (Christ') energy, which so powerfully works in me." (Colossians 1:29) Even Paul struggled, but this verse tells us he depended on Christ in him, through the power of the Holy Spirit, to do what he could not do.

So, I'm wondering as I write this... is there something hard that is happening in your life or in your day that might be the very thing God is using to show you how to rely more on Him? Is there an area where you don't have enough, that He might want to be your enough?

Instead of resisting, or trying harder, will you ask Jesus to fill in a gap and be what you cannot be, or give what you don't have today?

I've come face to face, again today, with the fact that I can't do it without him, and I don't even want to try. Let me know how I can pray for you. I would love to!


Blogger Keri said...

Thank you for sharing your nightmare experience, I am so glad that you found peace praying over your daughter. Praying for you today. I know the enemy just hooks right into where our doubt and pain is in our hearts and makes us question God's love, Lordship, presence... I had just such an experience last night and it is feels like my faith just evaporates and I am alone in those moments. I know in my head He is here, in my heart, I want to run away...

Blogger KELLY W said...

I too woke this morning at 3 AM with a nightmare that I had all these little children and a tornado was coming and I couldn't get them inside. All the doors were locked. Strange dream, but I'm sure it has meaning! Please pray that I will have a heart that will always think to pray for others that hurt me or disappoint me instead of lashing out in an unchristian like way. Love you and will always be praying for you and your precous family. Kelly

Blogger lisasmith said...

I love, love, love this verse, "To this end I labor, depending on His energy that powerfully works within me."(Colossians 1:29)

I've been so weary lately I've had to shut down many things in my life including my computer, PTO meetings and writing. I'm taking a vacation from it all this weekend and I've been reading "Thin Places." I think I'm in love with Mary or at least her use of words and I know I'm in love with her Jesus!!

Blogger Joyful said...

Renee, did you happen to see my Facebook status yesterday morning?
‎"'He saw the disciples straining at the oars.' (Mark 6:48) What does God see us straining to do on our own? We must allow God to work in us and through us. 'Not overwork, but overflow'."

Oh how I need to rely on God in everything and for everything. I am currently trusting Him to get me through Monday when we take our son to University and drop him off. Then, the surgery Dad was originally going to have when I was at She Speaks, was rescheduled for September 14th, so I am trusting the Lord with that concern.

Relying on God and always needing to believe that His enough is MORE THAN enough! :)

Love ya friend,

Yes, there is a challenge in front of me, but God is also there... loving and lifting me as only he can.

And about those nightmares? I've had them as well concerning my kids; prayer is the amazing connector for regaining our inward Peace.

Keep to it.


Blogger Monica said...


I know God is with us in everything we do and in everything that we are, but sometimes I look at things and wonder how it will get done.

I am in my second year of seminary and after two weeks into the semester the professors are commenting that they are looking for Masters level work. My prayer is God please be the strength that I am not. Lay upon me and my classmates the wisdom needed to bring You glory. Help us to write, speak, teach and preach on the Masters level - Your level.


Anonymous Anonymous said...

i wake up around 2 or 3 everyday with a sense of dread i ask god to help and fill me with his peace but i sure don't feel it could you please pray for me to find his peace.

Blogger Momma of JAA Lemon said...

I know this is kind of late and you may not get it but if you do please pray for me.

Blogger Melissa said...

Please pray for Mike's salvation.

Thank you so much.


Blogger Nancy Jensen said...

Loved this -
"Instead of resisting, or trying harder, will you ask Him to fill in a gap and be what you cannot be or give what you do not have today?"

Wise council! I need to remember to do that. I can think of no better fuel for my days than the endless power of God.

I hate nightmares about my children. Such a feeling of helplessness and panic even in your sleep. Horrible. I would imagine if we took a poll there would be many mothers who have experienced the same thing.

I pray you will have a more restful night sleep tonight.

Peace be with you.

Blogger Amanda said...

Just what I needed today...thanks!

Anonymous Anonymous said...

I woke up about the same time coughing all night. I think I'm coming down with bronchitis. I have a lot on my plate, just went through a huge financial bomb, a huge divorce, still going through a huge custody battle, standing in the gap for my prodigal spouse, praying I'll get called back to work soon, helping a child with homework, trying to figure out what's wrong with my car and hopefully I'll start fixing regular meals at regular times again!


Anonymous Tracy Nunes said...

Renee, thank you for being the example of a real woman who loves God and who struggles to figure out how it all fits.

I have been learning this too. After an intense time of weariness I was begging God to renew me and to give me some kind of heavenly lightning rod that would zap me back to where I needed to be. He said, "Tracy, until you let go and rest you are in no shape to hear from me." He braught to mind Elijah under the broom tree begging God to just take him away. Instead God gave him food and rest and then finally...revelation.

So, I did. I rested and then heard from Him powerful things my heart needed to hear. Things I didn't even know where on His agenda.

Blogger Renee Swope said...

Praying through your notes tonight 9/13/10 before I got to bed. Asking God to pour out His peace and provision of strength over each of your lives. May His life and power in us be the strength of our hearts. Good night friends.

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