I'm running on fumes this morning, practicing my scripts for Proverbs 31 Ministries Radio recording that starts in an hour and getting the kids settled before I go.
I woke up at 3am after a horrible nightmare that someone abducted Aster and we could not find her. I couldn't even breathe to get the words out to tell people where to look for her. It was horrible! When I woke up my heart was racing and I couldn't get back to sleep. I went upstairs to check on her two times because I just needed to see and touch her. Praying over her comforted my heart.
This morning I am asking Jesus to replace my fumes with His Holy fuel.
I don't know about you, but I can't do anything in my own strength on a few hours of sleep. My weary heart is searching for strength. I need the kind that is made perfect in my weakness. And I am so thankful that, in Christ, I find it. When I am weak He say's He will be strong.
I keep thinking of Paul's words, "To this end I labor, struggling with all (Christ') energy, which so powerfully works in me." (Colossians 1:29) Even Paul struggled, but this verse tells us he depended on Christ in him, through the power of the Holy Spirit, to do what he could not do.
So, I'm wondering as I write this... is there something hard that is happening in your life or in your day that might be the very thing God is using to show you how to rely more on Him? Is there an area where you don't have enough, that He might want to be your enough?
Instead of resisting, or trying harder, will you ask Jesus to fill in a gap and be what you cannot be, or give what you don't have today?
I've come face to face, again today, with the fact that I can't do it without him, and I don't even want to try. Let me know how I can pray for you. I would love to!